How to become a dedicated and strong peace warrior
You can’t do something glorious, if you can’t make yourself even a healthy breakfast.
Berta Caceres was born in Honduras in 4 March of 1971. 44 years later she got shot in the same place, because she wanted oil companies to stay away from her land and stop the works of “development”. She had lived there all her life and became a forest warrior until one day, armed men went to her home and shot her dead. We would wish this gorgeous woman was the only victim of greedy psychopaths, but she wasn’t.
When I got informed about this, I got angry and sad, but at the same time proud of the strength of this woman. I have always used to feel this desire to fight for a better community, which within the years has become global in the real world and my mind. I had this feeling since I can remember myself, but then I realized I lacked of some vital skills to be this person. The fact that I wanted this was far away from the fact that I could be this person.
The first second I got disappointed about myself. I am lucky though because I had already started being fed up of this thought I had always been having about myself. So the next second of my thought ended like “Come on! You can’t do the glorious thing that you want to do, when you can’t even make yourself a healthy breakfast!”
I loved this moment, it was an awakening and I really wanted to make a new beginning in my everyday routine, write things down every day and be committed to this. The relieving thing about people’s blood being spilt is that it awakens new spirits, spirits that maybe were asleep for years, for other irrelative reasons most of them products of our societies and minds.
So the next morning I made myself a gorgeous breakfast. Healthy, plain, cheap and clean (when I say clean I mean straight from a tree, not mine yet, but first steps are always a victory. Clean food gets a lot closer when you eat fruit and yogurt rather than a sandwich with salami and checkup).I think you can’t change the world when you eat salami,for many reasons. The first week was dedicated in cleaning my body from shitty shits I had daily in my routine and resting getting enough sleep. Next Monday would find me on the street walking, late in the morning, because I couldn’t wake up no matter how hard I tried. Next month would find me on the street early in the morning, because walking for a month long had made my body a little bit stronger, so I was stronger to wake up earlier. March found me on a hill, early in the morning running and I have noticed that every 28 days make a new habit.Yes,the queen of laziness can tell you that the habit that makes you weak and guilty can be changed in 28 days in a row. I think I was a better soldier now, waking up early, a little bit stronger than yesterday.
I have loved nature and animals since I could remember myself. I knew very little things about this “field” though. Going early in the morning on the hill, made me watch another world. It was another society, working early in the morning for the ecosystem. The trees taught me that you can flourish only when you let your leaves go, the ants and ladybugs showed me how committed they are in their everyday tasks and how much hard they work. I am sure they enjoy it too, smelling the wet soil of the dawn. No later than a week I started spending my free time educating myself about the ecosystem and life all around me. I was shocked to learn that trees communicate with each other underground, they even heal someone in their community when gets sick! I couldn’t be a soldier for a field I knew nothing about, so I guess the fact that I sat my ass down and educated myself about the Earth and life made me a better soldier than I thought I was yesterday.
Trees have taught me two basic things so far. Let old things go in Fall. You just can’t try to keep your dead leaves on your branches, no matter how much you love them, no matter how much addicted you are to them. Our thoughts for us are the leaves for the trees.Who knows perhaps trees try to keep them too, but nature makes them fall free using her relieving wind. She knows that leaves make perfect fertilizer for the soil to give birth to new trees and food for the insects to continue the circle of life. Imagine a tree that keeps its leaves, imagine how its surroundings would me. Think about it twice.
Furthermore, trees taught me the support of the community. It is underground and pure. We as humans are luckier though, we don’t have roots to keep us in the same tribe, if we don’t have the support we need. We can change the tribe, as many times as we want and find the place that heals us when we need it. We have this potential, no matter that we have been taught that when you leave the herd the wolf eats you. Now the valley is not your neighborhood, it is a global society, fool of herds. Go find yours and let your roots grow underground. I guess I am a better soldier when I am connected.
I had been a part of many volunteer actions many times in my life. I have always translated people’s behaviors in myself too. What I saw though and really didn’t like was the attitude that each person was an every day hero, usually who fought alone because people would never understand them. Small groups crying about how people would never care about their actions. Yes, that is true. People don’t care about what small groups or humans alone do, people follow fashion too, about new trends and “blow minding ideas”. I hate that too, you are not alone. But what I really avoid, is the attitude that you want people’s help and company when you are nervous inside. I understand the fact that you have lost your faith in humanity, but you need to relax deeply inside so as to be open for your tribe. No one wants to join a group of stressed people who cry all the time about anxiety and how humanity is coming to an end. Everyone has anxiety about the same matters, what we need to do is to stay peaceful deep inside and attract the positivity that flows all around. If everything was bad, we would all be dead this morning. Except for the serious problem with plastic, I am totally sure that this is the best era to be alive. There are good works all around you, look at this direction so as to go to this direction. Having a map makes me an oriented soldier! (oh my god, I am turning into a great soldier I think I’ll get myself a compass! I deserve it!)
Every day I get up, my previous evil self comes next to my ear and whispers “Come on, you have been going to that hill every day for the past months, you deserve to stay in your warm bed for a morning. And then a ladybug comes to my left ear and whispers “I am committed to myself, I am working every day humbly. I am happy and free you lazy crying human!” So, I guess I don’t have another choice rather than being committed and humble, no matter how much I have tried the previous days. Weekends are for me to relax, weekdays are to grow. I have realized that freedom comes from the pure commitment to me and my dream. A committed soldier is a victorious soldier. Every day, no matter what. I said to myself “imagine only if people you admire would postpone the work for tomorrow”.
Either we like it or not, life for humans has always been a fight. I have also admitted that maybe this fight is the injection we need to love the names of life and freedom. Human history has always been a messed up story. We have never achieved to live all together. Humans have built the future so many times and destroyed it in the same number, this is nothing new. We have built cages first for us, later for animals and birds, then for the humans to come. This is the era where we can work all humankind together. Let’s just don’t blow it up thinking of previous years were better and romantic. This is a fairy tale. We have the means to have a combination of the good things of the past and the good things of the future, for the first time in our known history. We have only one shot. We can make it when we are connected, positive and active.
We can master our fear, take care of ourselves, work on our desires and give whatever we have.
Be committed and give it.
We need your light. We need you strong and alive.